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My name is Ravenlyn. In Herbrew and Old English, it means Black bird by the lake or by the pond. At the moment I live in Stamford, Connecticut. Been here for about a year. When your young, you think it'll be easy to be independent. To be on your own. A year later, I realize it's harder than it looks.
Another day in paradise...
by ShamelessPain
Age: 19  Sex: F

814 Entries
# Entry Date
1 Brief 08/05/2008 10:22 GMT
2 Another hole 07/05/2008 10:19 GMT
3 Working my pants off 06/05/2008 10:28 GMT
4 Office Space is the shyt 04/05/2008 08:48 GMT
5 Killed my boyfriend?? 03/05/2008 11:58 GMT
6 Bad stuff 30/04/2008 08:49 GMT
7 Fake Identity 29/04/2008 05:26 GMT
8 The title... because I was lazy 2 enter one before 28/04/2008 08:19 GMT
9 Bothering me 27/04/2008 12:28 GMT
10 Wish the day away... 26/04/2008 10:54 GMT
11 Solution 25/04/2008 07:20 GMT
12 He got arrested... than got a job...? 24/04/2008 06:43 GMT
13 Better night. 23/04/2008 07:47 GMT
14 Our moving date is official 22/04/2008 07:35 GMT
15 Lies 22/04/2008 06:37 GMT
16 Trip to PENN & Mikes a LIAR? 21/04/2008 02:49 GMT
17 She's doing herion again.. 20/04/2008 07:30 GMT
18 Got jobs... yes jobS. 18/04/2008 03:13 GMT
19 X 17/04/2008 11:13 GMT
20 My pics 17/04/2008 08:58 GMT
21 one way ticket to hell 15/04/2008 05:20 GMT
22 Another Miracle 12/04/2008 07:52 GMT
23 Banana Cream Pie 11/04/2008 06:14 GMT
24 Food Food Food 10/04/2008 10:52 GMT
25 Job Babel 09/04/2008 02:13 GMT
26 Clean clean clean 08/04/2008 09:02 GMT
27 Seattle. 07/04/2008 03:58 GMT
28 Giving up this time.. 29/03/2008 11:26 GMT
29 Worse...Where would I be? 29/03/2008 07:00 GMT
30 Screwed 28/03/2008 03:08 GMT
31 Random babbel 26/03/2008 07:05 GMT
32 made my decision 24/03/2008 06:22 GMT
33 Treating me 19/03/2008 07:53 GMT
34 Chaos 18/03/2008 08:17 GMT
35 Got a job... maybe not the right one 17/03/2008 07:11 GMT
36 Nothing yet. 16/03/2008 07:43 GMT
37 Another day in the sun 13/03/2008 01:35 GMT
38 Drunk... yes actually drunk 06/03/2008 10:42 GMT
39 Albany,NY, Burlington,VT, Nantucket,MA tomorrow 05/03/2008 12:16 GMT
40 What a wonderful week. 04/03/2008 05:56 GMT
41 Stupid colors..finally decided to work 29/02/2008 07:36 GMT
42 Bills bills bills 29/02/2008 02:37 GMT
43 A big Rainbow mess 28/02/2008 09:32 GMT
44 Just a night... 27/02/2008 06:38 GMT
45 Dying of Bordum dum dum dummmmmmmmmmmm 26/02/2008 07:30 GMT
46 Down down down down.... 25/02/2008 01:02 GMT
47 The start of a new beginning.. 24/02/2008 10:13 GMT
48 Job Interview! 22/02/2008 07:59 GMT
49 Dingy little sh1t hole. 21/02/2008 08:44 GMT
50 Quiet night. 20/02/2008 07:55 GMT
51 Delemia 19/02/2008 12:01 GMT
52 Everything's gonna be alright 18/02/2008 08:50 GMT
53 Today ended our relationship. 17/02/2008 01:37 GMT
54 Miserablely sick 14/02/2008 07:34 GMT
55 Picture of Present Lenny got me. Lots of pics 13/02/2008 10:51 GMT
56 Seattle, Washington? Still pondering. 12/02/2008 07:10 GMT
57 Lots of Pictures. Tattoo's and body modifications 08/02/2008 10:47 GMT
58 My boyfriend is an idiot.. It's official. 07/02/2008 01:19 GMT
59 Getting sick. 06/02/2008 07:58 GMT
60 It's like using him. It's not fair. 05/02/2008 07:00 GMT
61 Thee reasons to stay 05/02/2008 02:44 GMT
62 Eventually saying goodbye.. 04/02/2008 08:14 GMT
63 This will be goodbye. 01/02/2008 08:14 GMT
64 Getting better. Getting off drugs. 31/01/2008 10:43 GMT
65 This is getting rediculous 30/01/2008 07:21 GMT
66 Aggrivated 29/01/2008 07:42 GMT
67 Drugs and paranoia. 28/01/2008 06:54 GMT
68 More added to the list 24/01/2008 11:11 GMT
69 Nothingness.... another reason I hate my life 23/01/2008 07:47 GMT
70 more bad news.. i dont care anymore. im done. 23/01/2008 01:39 GMT
71 N/A 21/01/2008 08:41 GMT
72 A while bunch of blah blah blah. 18/01/2008 08:05 GMT
73 A new trip to plan... 17/01/2008 08:42 GMT
74 I actually have a social like? no way. 16/01/2008 07:34 GMT
75 Great weekend 14/01/2008 08:04 GMT
76 Feeling down today & a picture. 11/01/2008 12:01 GMT
77 Love him too much to leave him. 10/01/2008 11:14 GMT
78 Final Solution... 09/01/2008 09:37 GMT
79 I don't know what to do. 08/01/2008 08:29 GMT
80 Car smells like gas station... thanks Lenny 07/01/2008 08:11 GMT
81 the good news and the bads new... bad new first.. 04/01/2008 08:34 GMT
82 A year of travel 03/01/2008 12:40 GMT
83 drunken new years =P 02/01/2008 07:17 GMT
84 Lesbi@ns in a motel party. lots of em' 31/12/2007 09:01 GMT
85 Party tonight? hopefully 28/12/2007 04:11 GMT
86 Shoot me... please 27/12/2007 12:04 GMT
87 Disaster... 26/12/2007 08:32 GMT
88 Looking up just a bit... 21/12/2007 07:04 GMT
89 In a money squeaz.... 19/12/2007 08:05 GMT
90 Hating life. 18/12/2007 12:43 GMT
91 Frusterated... not getting better. 17/12/2007 07:48 GMT
92 A whole mess of trouble. 14/12/2007 06:54 GMT
93 Screwed 14/12/2007 03:48 GMT
94 Vacation and new car update 13/12/2007 09:20 GMT
95 1999 Mercury Cougar. MINE! Pictures 05/12/2007 06:55 GMT
96 New Cars... and bank trouble. 04/12/2007 07:49 GMT
97 South Carolina... here I come! 03/12/2007 10:53 GMT
98 Things just keep getting worse and worse 30/11/2007 08:29 GMT
99 (not)Going to South Carolina 28/11/2007 02:08 GMT
100 Need furniture... 27/11/2007 03:49 GMT
101 Life is good 26/11/2007 11:07 GMT
102 Early and cheap Christmas shopping 23/11/2007 02:50 GMT
103 A little of this, a little of that 21/11/2007 12:34 GMT
104 She hadd a GIRL! Supossed to be a boy. 20/11/2007 09:41 GMT
105 Mouse problems. 19/11/2007 11:33 GMT
106 He got a job!!!!!!! 16/11/2007 02:00 GMT
107 End of a friendship 15/11/2007 10:20 GMT
108 Grimey mofooo's 15/11/2007 02:07 GMT
109 Looking for another Saturn sc2... 13/11/2007 01:32 GMT
110 Good weekend - bad Raven 12/11/2007 10:36 GMT
111 Mousey's 09/11/2007 03:13 GMT
112 f*** this job. 07/11/2007 01:44 GMT
113 So called problems with car 06/11/2007 07:38 GMT
114 Halloween Pictures 02/11/2007 01:34 GMT
115 Making trouble 31/10/2007 10:28 GMT
116 On the Halloween Menu..Ebay Car 30/10/2007 02:52 GMT
117 Halloween is close. Making trouble hehe. 29/10/2007 12:23 GMT
118 No baby in my arms 26/10/2007 02:24 GMT
119 Work troubles 23/10/2007 10:25 GMT
120 Missing murder weapon Cop questioning my boyfriend 22/10/2007 12:17 GMT
121 Weekend 22/10/2007 10:06 GMT
122 I hate my father right now. 19/10/2007 04:07 GMT
123 Daddy and the battery =P 18/10/2007 09:18 GMT
124 Sleep deprivation 16/10/2007 12:01 GMT
125 Murdered 16/10/2007 05:16 GMT
126 Something new... 15/10/2007 09:29 GMT
127 Fun weekend planned 12/10/2007 04:30 GMT
128 N/A 11/10/2007 04:14 GMT
129 Not fair... 10/10/2007 10:54 GMT
130 Adventurous weekend. 08/10/2007 10:48 GMT
131 Thinking of... somebody else. 05/10/2007 01:48 GMT
132 Car accident. Update. 04/10/2007 07:58 GMT
133 Good day yesterday. 02/10/2007 01:07 GMT
134 Another turn in the relationship. 01/10/2007 08:55 GMT
135 Kill me. Please. 28/09/2007 02:28 GMT
136 I hate my job right now... 26/09/2007 08:38 GMT
137 Bills and jealousy. 25/09/2007 10:13 GMT
138 There's a thief in the house. dun dun dun. 24/09/2007 05:08 GMT
139 Up's and downs of courtyard mariott. 24/09/2007 02:29 GMT
140 Another mini vacation 21/09/2007 01:52 GMT
141 Our little vacation... might be cancelled. 19/09/2007 11:01 GMT
142 Another short vacation 18/09/2007 04:46 GMT
143 Life...in general... 17/09/2007 12:18 GMT
144 Sixty-five hour work week 14/09/2007 04:15 GMT
145 Just a bit of blah blah blah. 12/09/2007 11:57 GMT
146 New job. Manager position 11/09/2007 03:37 GMT
147 I'm coming undone. 07/09/2007 02:02 GMT
148 The update on Cherry Red 05/09/2007 09:44 GMT
149 Cherry Red is a Lemon... 03/09/2007 05:38 GMT
150 Brand new Cherry Red Sport car 31/08/2007 03:27 GMT
151 Solution to money problems. 30/08/2007 01:47 GMT
152 Can't afford to eat, sleep or... smoke 29/08/2007 08:53 GMT
153 Theme parks galore 28/08/2007 09:28 GMT
154 No sleep last night. The solution to my problem 24/08/2007 09:16 GMT
155 Another useless birthday 23/08/2007 04:54 GMT
156 Hotel. Pregnancy. Shrooms. 22/08/2007 01:28 GMT
157 Tattoo list 21/08/2007 09:41 GMT
158 Another dream. I ran him over. 17/08/2007 06:57 GMT
159 All day every day. 16/08/2007 02:13 GMT
160 Small drops of blood.. 14/08/2007 07:52 GMT
161 Long entry. =P 13/08/2007 11:39 GMT
162 Anybody have this birthday? August 24 10/08/2007 01:15 GMT
163 Still in the hospital.. Internal Bleeding. 09/08/2007 07:33 GMT
164 Apitizers are just for looking not touching 08/08/2007 09:52 GMT
165 Gastric Bypass Sugery rejecting 06/08/2007 10:24 GMT
166 Miss you just as much as the day you left 03/08/2007 01:15 GMT
167 Evicted? 02/08/2007 02:12 GMT
168 Weird Dream. 31/07/2007 08:26 GMT
169 Prosti tutes walking around at 2am last night 30/07/2007 12:18 GMT
170 Hotel Reservations. 26/07/2007 12:06 GMT
171 Getting fined for climbing through the window. 23/07/2007 04:06 GMT
172 This guys a scum bag 20/07/2007 03:08 GMT
173 Fairy Tattoo. 18/07/2007 04:44 GMT
174 Moving target for disaster... 17/07/2007 04:23 GMT
175 Ditzy Today.. 09/07/2007 11:39 GMT
176 Empty beds and empty minds.. 06/07/2007 12:04 GMT
177 Another sucky Holiday 05/07/2007 12:01 GMT
178 Falling apart 02/07/2007 11:52 GMT
179 Shoot me now?. 26/06/2007 12:58 GMT
180 Car accident. crashed @ 45mph 25/06/2007 03:22 GMT
181 Got an apartment & fireworks hehe 21/06/2007 11:54 GMT
182 Recent Pictures. 17/06/2007 02:49 GMT
183 Update. Why can't something go our way? 15/06/2007 11:55 GMT
184 Remember the good times. My Pictures&Artwork 15/06/2007 02:36 GMT
185 Finally found a place to live!!! 13/06/2007 02:33 GMT
186 Saturday BBQ. 11/06/2007 09:27 GMT
187 Head over heals in love.. 07/06/2007 03:04 GMT
188 Cancel that were not going Friday. 05/06/2007 01:18 GMT
189 Tight on money. 04/06/2007 02:08 GMT
190 Pregnancy... non existant. 31/05/2007 05:11 GMT
191 Hummer Limo. 30/05/2007 03:05 GMT
192 Think she's blond? 25/05/2007 01:03 GMT
193 Another fight 24/05/2007 01:36 GMT
194 Baby names and RIP cell phone.. 21/05/2007 05:11 GMT
195 Family, who needs em? 20/05/2007 02:22 GMT
196 Another bunch of car babel. 17/05/2007 11:56 GMT
197 Just a little jump of hope. 14/05/2007 12:34 GMT
198 Fasley Arrested... 11/05/2007 04:57 GMT
199 Party and pregnant follow-up. 07/05/2007 04:27 GMT
200 Party, everybody was arrested. Under-aged children 06/05/2007 12:54 GMT
201 Threesome, foursome? Close enough. 03/05/2007 04:37 GMT
202 A day in the mist. 29/04/2007 04:29 GMT
203 Who do I love more? Indecisive.. 25/04/2007 04:25 GMT
204 So Confused and hurt 19/04/2007 04:01 GMT
205 Relationship is falling apart. 15/04/2007 03:34 GMT
206 Another fight, and now he's left. 14/04/2007 10:52 GMT
207 Two fights, but everythings better now. 10/04/2007 03:18 GMT
208 I don't have a family anymore.. 04/04/2007 03:02 GMT
209 Family means nothing, absolutely nothing to me now 31/03/2007 07:36 GMT
210 Lost my job. 29/03/2007 11:53 GMT
211 Jobless again. Kill me please. 25/03/2007 01:05 GMT
212 Six months of pain and pleasure. 23/03/2007 08:32 GMT
213 He cried until the sun came up. 21/03/2007 02:09 GMT
214 Mickey and Celtic knot Tattoo 20/03/2007 11:42 GMT
215 The Lesser tears... Old Love. 19/03/2007 10:04 GMT
216 Things are looking up....Spoke too soon. 16/03/2007 07:53 GMT
217 White hot tears 15/03/2007 12:33 GMT
218 In Denial 14/03/2007 09:10 GMT
219 St. Drunks Day with the midget. 13/03/2007 01:43 GMT
220 Cars. Vacation. Mother was a coke addict? 12/03/2007 10:30 GMT
221 Waking up to an empty bed. 09/03/2007 10:21 GMT
222 Absolute Love. 08/03/2007 08:48 GMT
223 unexplainable unhappiness. 06/03/2007 08:28 GMT
224 Breaking the habbit isn't so easy? Cocaine. 05/03/2007 08:50 GMT
225 She went brain dead. 02/03/2007 09:19 GMT
226 NEW PAGAN TATTOO.. 01/03/2007 09:10 GMT
227 Hours In bed 27/02/2007 03:50 GMT
228 A little summary. 23/02/2007 02:44 GMT
229 Feels like new 20/02/2007 05:11 GMT
230 Connecticut iffy (44 days drug free) 17/02/2007 04:19 GMT
231 4 weeks drug free 03/02/2007 04:50 GMT
232 Suddenly in need?? 02/02/2007 03:36 GMT
233 Passed out in his bathroom. 29/01/2007 09:57 GMT
234 Detective. Kill me. 25/01/2007 08:42 GMT
235 In Daaaa Club =) 22/01/2007 10:59 GMT
236 December 18/01/2007 09:36 GMT
237 DreamCast. It's back.. 15/01/2007 10:29 GMT
238 My face. Pictures.. 14/01/2007 11:40 GMT
239 Almost Killed a bunny. 12/01/2007 03:28 GMT
240 And this is goodbye?? 11/01/2007 11:06 GMT
241 Drowned. Dead. 10/01/2007 10:21 GMT
242 Always getting blamed 09/01/2007 01:30 GMT
243 Hemogloben Defieciency 05/01/2007 02:55 GMT
244 Escasty. Cocaine. 03/01/2007 03:54 GMT
245 Back in the mix of the Drugs. 02/01/2007 11:16 GMT
246 Another day another dollar 28/12/2006 04:38 GMT
247 Here comes the hail. 27/12/2006 01:46 GMT
248 Another year. 25/12/2006 12:59 GMT
249 Four points of today... 23/12/2006 11:27 GMT
250 Look what you've turned me into 20/12/2006 09:36 GMT
251 Robbed. 19/12/2006 09:49 GMT
252 Just a bunch of babble 18/12/2006 01:14 GMT
253 When it rains. It pours. 14/12/2006 08:58 GMT
254 Oh the joys of growing up 13/12/2006 11:36 GMT
255 shyt happens 07/12/2006 02:28 GMT
256 Another little update 04/12/2006 11:23 GMT
257 And for my next trick... 02/12/2006 09:17 GMT
258 New Tattoo... 01/12/2006 09:24 GMT
259 tis the season to get pregnant 28/11/2006 02:13 GMT
260 Another week in the mist. 26/11/2006 11:11 GMT
261 Hectic Morning.... Just a bit. 20/11/2006 12:12 GMT
262 Drinking myself silly. 99 Blue Berries... yum. 20/11/2006 10:06 GMT
263 Another day in the mix. 16/11/2006 09:48 GMT
264 MMD is starting to suck... 10/11/2006 02:47 GMT
265 Please dont pray in my diary 08/11/2006 03:00 GMT
266 You've been dead for three months. I miss you. 07/11/2006 11:39 GMT
267 She say's she's in love with me 06/11/2006 10:43 GMT
268 How does the world keep spinning? 02/11/2006 08:07 GMT
269 Drunk in PuBLIC? ...(i wish) 30/10/2006 07:09 GMT
270 Halloween is right around the courner 28/10/2006 12:13 GMT
271 Just a bunch of blah blah blah... 24/10/2006 07:09 GMT
272 Guy of my dreams<3 22/10/2006 08:30 GMT
273 Waist of your time. 19/10/2006 07:37 GMT
274 Drunken Dougnuts. hehe. 15/10/2006 09:17 GMT
275 Here he comes again... 10/10/2006 03:11 GMT
276 Halloween Costume, Boys & Pills. 09/10/2006 05:21 GMT
277 Amazing weekend. 04/10/2006 06:06 GMT
278 Fucckker. 02/10/2006 09:58 GMT
279 A Picture of Chris Love. Rest in Peace baby. 01/10/2006 08:39 GMT
280 My Pictures. 27/09/2006 05:48 GMT
281 Almost arrested for posession... 23/09/2006 10:24 GMT
282 Random blah blah... 21/09/2006 11:08 GMT
283 Drug party in Connecticut :) 18/09/2006 11:12 GMT
284 I found my Mr. Wonderful... 17/09/2006 12:58 GMT
285 Connecticut & Drugs :) 13/09/2006 05:47 GMT
286 So much for a happy ending. 09/09/2006 10:50 GMT
287 Haunting. 08/09/2006 09:47 GMT
288 Holding on to memories. I miss you. 05/09/2006 09:59 GMT
289 Met a dream boy 04/09/2006 09:00 GMT
290 Loosing it all 31/08/2006 10:10 GMT
291 Lost so much, so young 28/08/2006 09:43 GMT
292 New Tattoo, in Memory of Chris Love 27/08/2006 09:30 GMT
293 Just stuff. Birthday/bar/Sister stole my car... 26/08/2006 12:04 GMT
294 Happy Birthday to Raven =D.. me! 24/08/2006 08:29 GMT
295 From his life forever 22/08/2006 06:19 GMT
296 Halloween in August, Pictures 20/08/2006 11:10 GMT
297 Lost my soulmate forever. I can't live with that. 15/08/2006 09:46 GMT
298 Renissance Fair, amazingly f***ed up 14/08/2006 06:38 GMT
299 Rennisance Fair, anybody going? 12/08/2006 02:12 GMT
300 Another series of unfortunate events 11/08/2006 05:48 GMT
301 Everything is plumeting, i cant stand this anymore 10/08/2006 09:41 GMT
302 YES, I am complaining, and NO I won't stop. 09/08/2006 06:24 GMT
303 Rest In Peace, Chris Love 07/08/2006 08:10 GMT
304 The whole thing was a hoax... 06/08/2006 11:29 GMT
305 He'll always be in my heart, but never on my mind. 06/08/2006 08:25 GMT
306 My Pictures. We pierced our tongues.