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My name is Ravenlyn. In Herbrew and Old English, it means Black bird by the lake or by the pond. At the moment I live in Stamford, Connecticut. Been here for about a year. When your young, you think it'll be easy to be independent. To be on your own. A year later, I realize it's harder than it looks.
Another day in paradise...
by ShamelessPain
Age: 19  Sex: F

817 Entries
# Entry Date
1 Money 13/05/2008 07:18 GMT
2 Over Analyzing 11/05/2008 05:11 GMT
3 Payment plan 09/05/2008 10:28 GMT
4 Brief 08/05/2008 10:22 GMT
5 Another hole 07/05/2008 10:19 GMT
6 Working my pants off 06/05/2008 10:28 GMT
7 Office Space is the shyt 04/05/2008 08:48 GMT
8 Killed my boyfriend?? 03/05/2008 11:58 GMT
9 Bad stuff 30/04/2008 08:49 GMT
10 Fake Identity 29/04/2008 05:26 GMT
11 The title... because I was lazy 2 enter one before 28/04/2008 08:19 GMT
12 Bothering me 27/04/2008 12:28 GMT
13 Wish the day away... 26/04/2008 10:54 GMT
14 Solution 25/04/2008 07:20 GMT
15 He got arrested... than got a job...? 24/04/2008 06:43 GMT
16 Better night. 23/04/2008 07:47 GMT
17 Our moving date is official 22/04/2008 07:35 GMT
18 Lies 22/04/2008 06:37 GMT
19 Trip to PENN & Mikes a LIAR? 21/04/2008 02:49 GMT
20 She's doing herion again.. 20/04/2008 07:30 GMT
21 Got jobs... yes jobS. 18/04/2008 03:13 GMT
22 X 17/04/2008 11:13 GMT
23 My pics 17/04/2008 08:58 GMT
24 one way ticket to hell 15/04/2008 05:20 GMT
25 Another Miracle 12/04/2008 07:52 GMT
26 Banana Cream Pie 11/04/2008 06:14 GMT
27 Food Food Food 10/04/2008 10:52 GMT
28 Job Babel 09/04/2008 02:13 GMT
29 Clean clean clean 08/04/2008 09:02 GMT
30 Seattle. 07/04/2008 03:58 GMT
31 Giving up this time.. 29/03/2008 11:26 GMT
32 Worse...Where would I be? 29/03/2008 07:00 GMT
33 Screwed 28/03/2008 03:08 GMT
34 Random babbel 26/03/2008 07:05 GMT
35 made my decision 24/03/2008 06:22 GMT
36 Treating me 19/03/2008 07:53 GMT
37 Chaos 18/03/2008 08:17 GMT
38 Got a job... maybe not the right one 17/03/2008 07:11 GMT
39 Nothing yet. 16/03/2008 07:43 GMT
40 Another day in the sun 13/03/2008 01:35 GMT
41 Drunk... yes actually drunk 06/03/2008 10:42 GMT
42 Albany,NY, Burlington,VT, Nantucket,MA tomorrow 05/03/2008 12:16 GMT
43 What a wonderful week. 04/03/2008 05:56 GMT
44 Stupid colors..finally decided to work 29/02/2008 07:36 GMT
45 Bills bills bills 29/02/2008 02:37 GMT
46 A big Rainbow mess 28/02/2008 09:32 GMT
47 Just a night... 27/02/2008 06:38 GMT
48 Dying of Bordum dum dum dummmmmmmmmmmm 26/02/2008 07:30 GMT
49 Down down down down.... 25/02/2008 01:02 GMT
50 The start of a new beginning.. 24/02/2008 10:13 GMT
51 Job Interview! 22/02/2008 07:59 GMT
52 Dingy little sh1t hole. 21/02/2008 08:44 GMT
53 Quiet night. 20/02/2008 07:55 GMT
54 Delemia 19/02/2008 12:01 GMT
55 Everything's gonna be alright 18/02/2008 08:50 GMT
56 Today ended our relationship. 17/02/2008 01:37 GMT
57 Miserablely sick 14/02/2008 07:34 GMT
58 Picture of Present Lenny got me. Lots of pics 13/02/2008 10:51 GMT
59 Seattle, Washington? Still pondering. 12/02/2008 07:10 GMT
60 Lots of Pictures. Tattoo's and body modifications 08/02/2008 10:47 GMT
61 My boyfriend is an idiot.. It's official. 07/02/2008 01:19 GMT
62 Getting sick. 06/02/2008 07:58 GMT
63 It's like using him. It's not fair. 05/02/2008 07:00 GMT
64 Thee reasons to stay 05/02/2008 02:44 GMT
65 Eventually saying goodbye.. 04/02/2008 08:14 GMT
66 This will be goodbye. 01/02/2008 08:14 GMT
67 Getting better. Getting off drugs. 31/01/2008 10:43 GMT
68 This is getting rediculous 30/01/2008 07:21 GMT
69 Aggrivated 29/01/2008 07:42 GMT
70 Drugs and paranoia. 28/01/2008 06:54 GMT
71 More added to the list 24/01/2008 11:11 GMT
72 Nothingness.... another reason I hate my life 23/01/2008 07:47 GMT
73 more bad news.. i dont care anymore. im done. 23/01/2008 01:39 GMT
74 N/A 21/01/2008 08:41 GMT
75 A while bunch of blah blah blah. 18/01/2008 08:05 GMT
76 A new trip to plan... 17/01/2008 08:42 GMT
77 I actually have a social like? no way. 16/01/2008 07:34 GMT
78 Great weekend 14/01/2008 08:04 GMT
79 Feeling down today & a picture. 11/01/2008 12:01 GMT
80 Love him too much to leave him. 10/01/2008 11:14 GMT
81 Final Solution... 09/01/2008 09:37 GMT
82 I don't know what to do. 08/01/2008 08:29 GMT
83 Car smells like gas station... thanks Lenny 07/01/2008 08:11 GMT
84 the good news and the bads new... bad new first.. 04/01/2008 08:34 GMT
85 A year of travel 03/01/2008 12:40 GMT
86 drunken new years =P 02/01/2008 07:17 GMT
87 Lesbi@ns in a motel party. lots of em' 31/12/2007 09:01 GMT
88 Party tonight? hopefully 28/12/2007 04:11 GMT
89 Shoot me... please 27/12/2007 12:04 GMT
90 Disaster... 26/12/2007 08:32 GMT
91 Looking up just a bit... 21/12/2007 07:04 GMT
92 In a money squeaz.... 19/12/2007 08:05 GMT
93 Hating life. 18/12/2007 12:43 GMT
94 Frusterated... not getting better. 17/12/2007 07:48 GMT
95 A whole mess of trouble. 14/12/2007 06:54 GMT
96 Screwed 14/12/2007 03:48 GMT
97 Vacation and new car update 13/12/2007 09:20 GMT
98 1999 Mercury Cougar. MINE! Pictures 05/12/2007 06:55 GMT
99 New Cars... and bank trouble. 04/12/2007 07:49 GMT
100 South Carolina... here I come! 03/12/2007 10:53 GMT
101 Things just keep getting worse and worse 30/11/2007 08:29 GMT
102 (not)Going to South Carolina 28/11/2007 02:08 GMT
103 Need furniture... 27/11/2007 03:49 GMT
104 Life is good 26/11/2007 11:07 GMT
105 Early and cheap Christmas shopping 23/11/2007 02:50 GMT
106 A little of this, a little of that 21/11/2007 12:34 GMT
107 She hadd a GIRL! Supossed to be a boy. 20/11/2007 09:41 GMT
108 Mouse problems. 19/11/2007 11:33 GMT
109 He got a job!!!!!!! 16/11/2007 02:00 GMT
110 End of a friendship 15/11/2007 10:20 GMT
111 Grimey mofooo's 15/11/2007 02:07 GMT
112 Looking for another Saturn sc2... 13/11/2007 01:32 GMT
113 Good weekend - bad Raven 12/11/2007 10:36 GMT
114 Mousey's 09/11/2007 03:13 GMT
115 f*** this job. 07/11/2007 01:44 GMT
116 So called problems with car 06/11/2007 07:38 GMT
117 Halloween Pictures 02/11/2007 01:34 GMT
118 Making trouble 31/10/2007 10:28 GMT
119 On the Halloween Menu..Ebay Car 30/10/2007 02:52 GMT
120 Halloween is close. Making trouble hehe. 29/10/2007 12:23 GMT
121 No baby in my arms 26/10/2007 02:24 GMT
122 Work troubles 23/10/2007 10:25 GMT
123 Missing murder weapon Cop questioning my boyfriend 22/10/2007 12:17 GMT
124 Weekend 22/10/2007 10:06 GMT
125 I hate my father right now. 19/10/2007 04:07 GMT
126 Daddy and the battery =P 18/10/2007 09:18 GMT
127 Sleep deprivation 16/10/2007 12:01 GMT
128 Murdered 16/10/2007 05:16 GMT
129 Something new... 15/10/2007 09:29 GMT
130 Fun weekend planned 12/10/2007 04:30 GMT
131 N/A 11/10/2007 04:14 GMT
132 Not fair... 10/10/2007 10:54 GMT
133 Adventurous weekend. 08/10/2007 10:48 GMT
134 Thinking of... somebody else. 05/10/2007 01:48 GMT
135 Car accident. Update. 04/10/2007 07:58 GMT
136 Good day yesterday. 02/10/2007 01:07 GMT
137 Another turn in the relationship. 01/10/2007 08:55 GMT
138 Kill me. Please. 28/09/2007 02:28 GMT
139 I hate my job right now... 26/09/2007 08:38 GMT
140 Bills and jealousy. 25/09/2007 10:13 GMT
141 There's a thief in the house. dun dun dun. 24/09/2007 05:08 GMT
142 Up's and downs of courtyard mariott. 24/09/2007 02:29 GMT
143 Another mini vacation 21/09/2007 01:52 GMT
144 Our little vacation... might be cancelled. 19/09/2007 11:01 GMT
145 Another short vacation 18/09/2007 04:46 GMT
146 Life...in general... 17/09/2007 12:18 GMT
147 Sixty-five hour work week 14/09/2007 04:15 GMT
148 Just a bit of blah blah blah. 12/09/2007 11:57 GMT
149 New job. Manager position 11/09/2007 03:37 GMT
150 I'm coming undone. 07/09/2007 02:02 GMT
151 The update on Cherry Red 05/09/2007 09:44 GMT
152 Cherry Red is a Lemon... 03/09/2007 05:38 GMT
153 Brand new Cherry Red Sport car 31/08/2007 03:27 GMT
154 Solution to money problems. 30/08/2007 01:47 GMT
155 Can't afford to eat, sleep or... smoke 29/08/2007 08:53 GMT
156 Theme parks galore 28/08/2007 09:28 GMT
157 No sleep last night. The solution to my problem 24/08/2007 09:16 GMT
158 Another useless birthday 23/08/2007 04:54 GMT
159 Hotel. Pregnancy. Shrooms. 22/08/2007 01:28 GMT
160 Tattoo list 21/08/2007 09:41 GMT
161 Another dream. I ran him over. 17/08/2007 06:57 GMT
162 All day every day. 16/08/2007 02:13 GMT
163 Small drops of blood.. 14/08/2007 07:52 GMT
164 Long entry. =P 13/08/2007 11:39 GMT
165 Anybody have this birthday? August 24 10/08/2007 01:15 GMT
166 Still in the hospital.. Internal Bleeding. 09/08/2007 07:33 GMT
167 Apitizers are just for looking not touching 08/08/2007 09:52 GMT
168 Gastric Bypass Sugery rejecting 06/08/2007 10:24 GMT
169 Miss you just as much as the day you left 03/08/2007 01:15 GMT
170 Evicted? 02/08/2007 02:12 GMT
171 Weird Dream. 31/07/2007 08:26 GMT
172 Prosti tutes walking around at 2am last night 30/07/2007 12:18 GMT
173 Hotel Reservations. 26/07/2007 12:06 GMT
174 Getting fined for climbing through the window. 23/07/2007 04:06 GMT
175 This guys a scum bag 20/07/2007 03:08 GMT
176 Fairy Tattoo. 18/07/2007 04:44 GMT
177 Moving target for disaster... 17/07/2007 04:23 GMT
178 Ditzy Today.. 09/07/2007 11:39 GMT
179 Empty beds and empty minds.. 06/07/2007 12:04 GMT
180 Another sucky Holiday 05/07/2007 12:01 GMT
181 Falling apart 02/07/2007 11:52 GMT
182 Shoot me now?. 26/06/2007 12:58 GMT
183 Car accident. crashed @ 45mph 25/06/2007 03:22 GMT
184 Got an apartment & fireworks hehe 21/06/2007 11:54 GMT
185 Recent Pictures. 17/06/2007 02:49 GMT
186 Update. Why can't something go our way? 15/06/2007 11:55 GMT
187 Remember the good times. My Pictures&Artwork 15/06/2007 02:36 GMT
188 Finally found a place to live!!! 13/06/2007 02:33 GMT
189 Saturday BBQ. 11/06/2007 09:27 GMT
190 Head over heals in love.. 07/06/2007 03:04 GMT
191 Cancel that were not going Friday. 05/06/2007 01:18 GMT
192 Tight on money. 04/06/2007 02:08 GMT
193 Pregnancy... non existant. 31/05/2007 05:11 GMT
194 Hummer Limo. 30/05/2007 03:05 GMT
195 Think she's blond? 25/05/2007 01:03 GMT
196 Another fight 24/05/2007 01:36 GMT
197 Baby names and RIP cell phone.. 21/05/2007 05:11 GMT
198 Family, who needs em? 20/05/2007 02:22 GMT
199 Another bunch of car babel. 17/05/2007 11:56 GMT
200 Just a little jump of hope. 14/05/2007 12:34 GMT
201 Fasley Arrested... 11/05/2007 04:57 GMT
202 Party and pregnant follow-up. 07/05/2007 04:27 GMT
203 Party, everybody was arrested. Under-aged children 06/05/2007 12:54 GMT
204 Threesome, foursome? Close enough. 03/05/2007 04:37 GMT
205 A day in the mist. 29/04/2007 04:29 GMT
206 Who do I love more? Indecisive.. 25/04/2007 04:25 GMT
207 So Confused and hurt 19/04/2007 04:01 GMT
208 Relationship is falling apart. 15/04/2007 03:34 GMT
209 Another fight, and now he's left. 14/04/2007 10:52 GMT
210 Two fights, but everythings better now. 10/04/2007 03:18 GMT
211 I don't have a family anymore.. 04/04/2007 03:02 GMT
212 Family means nothing, absolutely nothing to me now 31/03/2007 07:36 GMT
213 Lost my job. 29/03/2007 11:53 GMT
214 Jobless again. Kill me please. 25/03/2007 01:05 GMT
215 Six months of pain and pleasure. 23/03/2007 08:32 GMT
216 He cried until the sun came up. 21/03/2007 02:09 GMT
217 Mickey and Celtic knot Tattoo 20/03/2007 11:42 GMT
218 The Lesser tears... Old Love. 19/03/2007 10:04 GMT
219 Things are looking up....Spoke too soon. 16/03/2007 07:53 GMT
220 White hot tears 15/03/2007 12:33 GMT
221 In Denial 14/03/2007 09:10 GMT
222 St. Drunks Day with the midget. 13/03/2007 01:43 GMT
223 Cars. Vacation. Mother was a coke addict? 12/03/2007 10:30 GMT
224 Waking up to an empty bed. 09/03/2007 10:21 GMT
225 Absolute Love. 08/03/2007 08:48 GMT
226 unexplainable unhappiness. 06/03/2007 08:28 GMT
227 Breaking the habbit isn't so easy? Cocaine. 05/03/2007 08:50 GMT
228 She went brain dead. 02/03/2007 09:19 GMT
229 NEW PAGAN TATTOO.. 01/03/2007 09:10 GMT
230 Hours In bed 27/02/2007 03:50 GMT
231 A little summary. 23/02/2007 02:44 GMT
232 Feels like new 20/02/2007 05:11 GMT
233 Connecticut iffy (44 days drug free) 17/02/2007 04:19 GMT
234 4 weeks drug free 03/02/2007 04:50 GMT
235 Suddenly in need?? 02/02/2007 03:36 GMT
236 Passed out in his bathroom. 29/01/2007 09:57 GMT
237 Detective. Kill me. 25/01/2007 08:42 GMT
238 In Daaaa Club =) 22/01/2007 10:59 GMT
239 December 18/01/2007 09:36 GMT
240 DreamCast. It's back.. 15/01/2007 10:29 GMT
241 My face. Pictures.. 14/01/2007 11:40 GMT
242 Almost Killed a bunny. 12/01/2007 03:28 GMT
243 And this is goodbye?? 11/01/2007 11:06 GMT
244 Drowned. Dead. 10/01/2007 10:21 GMT
245 Always getting blamed 09/01/2007 01:30 GMT
246 Hemogloben Defieciency 05/01/2007 02:55 GMT
247 Escasty. Cocaine. 03/01/2007 03:54 GMT
248 Back in the mix of the Drugs. 02/01/2007 11:16 GMT
249 Another day another dollar 28/12/2006 04:38 GMT
250 Here comes the hail. 27/12/2006 01:46 GMT
251 Another year. 25/12/2006 12:59 GMT
252 Four points of today... 23/12/2006 11:27 GMT
253 Look what you've turned me into 20/12/2006 09:36 GMT
254 Robbed. 19/12/2006 09:49 GMT
255 Just a bunch of babble 18/12/2006 01:14 GMT
256 When it rains. It pours. 14/12/2006 08:58 GMT
257 Oh the joys of growing up 13/12/2006 11:36 GMT
258 shyt happens 07/12/2006 02:28 GMT
259 Another little update 04/12/2006 11:23 GMT
260 And for my next trick... 02/12/2006 09:17 GMT
261 New Tattoo... 01/12/2006 09:24 GMT
262 tis the season to get pregnant 28/11/2006 02:13 GMT
263 Another week in the mist. 26/11/2006 11:11 GMT
264 Hectic Morning.... Just a bit. 20/11/2006 12:12 GMT
265 Drinking myself silly. 99 Blue Berries... yum. 20/11/2006 10:06 GMT
266 Another day in the mix. 16/11/2006 09:48 GMT
267 MMD is starting to suck... 10/11/2006 02:47 GMT
268 Please dont pray in my diary 08/11/2006 03:00 GMT
269 You've been dead for three months. I miss you. 07/11/2006 11:39 GMT
270 She say's she's in love with me 06/11/2006 10:43 GMT
271 How does the world keep spinning? 02/11/2006 08:07 GMT
272 Drunk in PuBLIC? ...(i wish) 30/10/2006 07:09 GMT
273 Halloween is right around the courner 28/10/2006 12:13 GMT
274 Just a bunch of blah blah blah... 24/10/2006 07:09 GMT
275 Guy of my dreams<3 22/10/2006 08:30 GMT
276 Waist of your time. 19/10/2006 07:37 GMT
277 Drunken Dougnuts. hehe. 15/10/2006 09:17 GMT
278 Here he comes again... 10/10/2006 03:11 GMT
279 Halloween Costume, Boys & Pills. 09/10/2006 05:21 GMT
280 Amazing weekend. 04/10/2006 06:06 GMT
281 Fucckker. 02/10/2006 09:58 GMT
282 A Picture of Chris Love. Rest in Peace baby. 01/10/2006 08:39 GMT
283 My Pictures. 27/09/2006 05:48 GMT
284 Almost arrested for posession... 23/09/2006 10:24 GMT
285 Random blah blah... 21/09/2006 11:08 GMT
286 Drug party in Connecticut :) 18/09/2006 11:12 GMT
287 I found my Mr. Wonderful... 17/09/2006 12:58 GMT
288 Connecticut & Drugs :) 13/09/2006 05:47 GMT
289 So much for a happy ending. 09/09/2006 10:50 GMT
290 Haunting. 08/09/2006 09:47 GMT
291 Holding on to memories. I miss you. 05/09/2006 09:59 GMT
292 Met a dream boy 04/09/2006 09:00 GMT
293 Loosing it all 31/08/2006 10:10 GMT
294 Lost so much, so young 28/08/2006 09:43 GMT
295 New Tattoo, in Memory of Chris Love 27/08/2006 09:30 GMT
296 Just stuff. Birthday/bar/Sister stole my car... 26/08/2006 12:04 GMT
297 Happy Birthday to Raven =D.. me! 24/08/2006 08:29 GMT
298 From his life forever 22/08/2006 06:19 GMT
299 Halloween in August, Pictures 20/08/2006 11:10 GMT
300 Lost my soulmate forever. I can't live with that. 15/08/2006 09:46 GMT
301 Renissance Fair, amazingly f***ed up 14/08/2006 06:38 GMT
302 Rennisance Fair, anybody going? 12/08/2006 02:12 GMT
303 Another series of unfortunate events 11/08/2006 05:48 GMT
304 Everything is plumeting, i cant stand this anymore 10/08/2006 09:41 GMT
305 YES, I am complaining, and NO I won't stop. 09/08/2006 06:24 GMT
306 Rest In Peace, Chris Love 07/08/2006 08:10 GMT